hmmm...

I miss my blog.

I miss researching ideas, and posting projects, sharing ideas, dreams, family, more than just a drop-a-photo depot. Julian is full of funny stuff these days, cussing all the time (yes, all the time), feeling competitive with a small baby, and getting so big that the baby fat is disappearing. Oliver is changing overnight--daily. Now he talks-baby talk and coos, convincing sounds to get more food, and tries to roll over, and smiles when he wants to, not just "practice smiles."

I'd like to talk about how motivated Bobby is with his new job and how it has breathed life into our home. How it seems like the day Oliver was born everything was made right in our little world.

I'd like to talk about how motivated I am by my friend Sara's house. She is moving and her house is so bare and clean and refreshing. I ache to have my house feel so free and clear of clutter. I want to be less sentimental about objects, less convinced that I will read all those books that I can't let go of, I want to be able to vacuum, dust, clean glass once a week without having to get rid of the clutter first and wonder why I spend all my time cleaning.

I'd like to post about my sick cat who I know I will lose any day. To pay tribute to her long life--a friend that I've had since I was nine years old.

Perhaps to post about the friends I miss, that I feel I've let down or continue to let down, or don't keep in touch with enough, the friends I have yet to send thank you cards to, the friends I admire, dream to know better, wish the best for, and just simply care for.

...about how I can't find a way to work in my field. That I question if I want to, that I cannot even put into words how I feel about it. I just want to consult people...where to start, where to start...

So...there we go. I will hopefully have Internet again soon and I can post more about these things...hopefully soon.